...and two steps back

I haven’t updated for a bit because I had started to feel better. Pretty much normal (whatever that is), at least for me.

Today I’m not feeling so good.

A couple of days ago I started having problems with my right leg. I’m not entirely certain how to describe it. There was some pain, but not bad. It didn’t feel weak exactly, but it seemed to take a lot more effort to get it to do what I wanted. I guess one would call that “weak”, but again, that doesn’t seem quite right.

Today I’ve started feeling a bit fuzzy in the head and numb again. The finger tips of both hands feel numb, as do my cheeks. As before, not completely numb, but the sensation is slightly dulled. I’m not having any problems thinking, but speaking is a monumental effort. I’m hoping that some of this is simply me being over tired – I haven’t slept well in the past few days.

Hoping, but not counting on.

I have to admit to being scared right now. I was hoping that the fact that it went away was a sign that it was not serious. That it came back diminishes that hope.

My appointment with the neurologist is in five days. In a way, it might be better that I’m not feeling well when I see him.

My arms are starting to feel weak now, as I type this.

It’s more than a bit disheartening to feel pretty good for two weeks and then to go back to feeling bad.